I would like advice from woman who have children, who are expecting and who don't have any and never plan too.

My husband wants children and I told myself I want some too but when the time is right when we can afford to and we know it's right. Well, my husband is in the military and so at first I thought have kid while he is in is good cause the child will be covered never have to worry to much, but I realized with him deploying and us being away from our families and the moving that's not the type of life I would want for my child and I especially wouldn't want to be raising a child on my own because he can't be there, it takes two people to make a baby. Then I thought I'd wait till he got out and we could do it then and I realized the cost and health insurance, which I understand will always be there no matter what but I thought will I be ready in two years? I don't know? So I said I'll think about it and then I realized we've been married a year and half and he's missed our first anniversary and he will miss the second one and that we barely spent anytime together as a married couple that I just can't think of having kids.

Well I told him how I felt and he was upset because he wants kids and he really wanted to get me pregnant as soon as he came back from deployment and I told him I'm not ready and he believes we are and I asked him how does he think we are ready he said he just knew and I can't shake this feeling that I may never be ready and I may not want any at all. I just want to know what it felt like knowing and the best way to get through to him about how I feel about this baby issue.