We have been trying for 10 months and i know that is short compared to many but in that time, I’ve been pregnant 4 times. 3 ended early and the last pregnancy proved to be ectopic. We ended it with MTX on Black Friday. It was a very low holiday season for us surrounded by our siblings and all their babies. Had things been different, we would have seen our baby a little over a week after I got the shot. Had things been different, we would have told our families at Christmas. If only things had been different.

Since this happened, I’ve started seeing a RE who diagnosed me with hypothyroidism. I’ve been on medication for it just shy of a month now and I’m working out and eating well. My doctor also advised I have low estrogen so I will be starting Femara next cycle.

And I’ve decided to be hopeful. I have hope things will change. I have hope there will be a baby in our arms. I have hope my husband won’t have to be quietly heartbroken anymore as he supports me. And I have hope for everyone in this community. If you don’t have hope, I will have it for you. Baby dust.

And on a lighter note, just got the solid smiley on my opk. It’s go time!