Where is my Prince Charming?????

You’re still a dick for preying on my innocence. Ordering me to stay with you though I tried time and time again to free myself from your firm cold grasp. Manipulative. Oppressor. You told me, “Olivia*, we only fight because we care so much about one another, it proves how much I love you that I get so angry with you!” 6. Six times that year I tried I break loose but to no avail. You had me sobbing as you screamed in my face “psycho bitch” and told me I could never leave you. I was only 16, naive, but for some reason I trusted you.. You were the first.

You’re still an ass for cheating on me. Spinning a perfect little web of lies to keep me around though you were screwing your ex girlfriend behind my back the entire time. Cunning. Slick. You said to me, “Olivia, I promise you I don’t even like her, she’s not the girl I used to know. We’re only friends but she’s just crazy!” 10. Ten months we slid down this slope of dishonesty and still it hit me like a bus when it blew up and the truth finally came out. You had me bawling on my laundry room floor asking what I did to deserve this, why I wasn’t good enough. I was 18, ignorant, but for some reason I trusted you.. You were the second.

You’re still a piece of shit for raping me. Masking yourself as my best friend and pretending you were looking out for me, I had asked for your help to get home safe from the bar. Repulsive. Detestable. You explain yourself, “Olivia, I’m innocent, you know me. I did not force myself on you, I promise you liked it!” 8. Eight years of friendship and though I was polite yet very stern AND clear with you on my lack of romantic feelings just one week prior, you proceeded to do god knows what with my body and I cannot even remember a single second of it. Not a glimpse. You had me weeping at night, crying myself to sleep, unable still to truly let myself feel that pain for fear of what I might remember. I am 22, hardened, but for some reason I trusted you.. You were just one of many more to come.

*name has been changed