rainbow baby

we lost a baby in 2016 our 3 little boy I was 23 weeks along layed down with our boys for our nap in there room husband works nights so he's asleep in our room I get layed down an comfy my water broke pounded on the wall he came in saw what happened called for ambulance I'm trying to get outside so the boys don't wake up and didn't work the sirens woke them up I isolated myself with volunteer firefighters hollering at my husband on what to pack for the boys to go to his mom thank God she lives close everybody was getting used to the idea we had another boy coming around Christmas now I'm in labor and he's coming now 1 minute after I arrived at the hospital I delivered a 2 pound boy on the ambulance gurney in a hallway I screamed he's coming typical response don't push too late he's here pulled him out so they could cut him free moment they did I seized I had never seized before they took him too Columbia thankfully we didn't have to make the decision to pull life support God relieved.us of that burden my family was mad I couldn't get fixed said I don't need to have anymore children and we've recently discovered I'm pregnant total shock to us I was tracking my cycle everything so this wouldn't happen so I need help how can we be excited about our little bundle coming when all we've heard is negative reaction its just a lot trying to stay positive