Trying to cope..

After 8 months of TTC in November 2017 we finally conceived baby #2 (different dad than 1st). Everything was going great, I was finally happy after feeling depressed for months. The 8 week appointment came and everything was great baby had a good heartbeat. Then came the 12 week appointment last Friday, where we were sadly informed that the baby had no "aortic rhythm"... (just found out today baby stopped growing at 10 weeks). My heart was so broken because I had no symptoms of a miscarriage, I was shocked. I wish I would've chose to do the d&c; when offered though. The pain I went through was pretty comparable to contractions with my first baby. (Ended up in the hospital) but still didn't have to have a d&c.; Today at my appointment they said everything had passed on it's own. Now they're just waiting for my HCG levels to go back down. But I just feel like it's going to take so long to get pregnant again.. and that's so heartbreaking... 😔 I have no patience, and I just want a baby so bad.