Okay I thought I was going to be lucky and skip the whole weight gain in my face thing during this pregnancy. But I’m starting to see it. And it KILLS me to see myself getting like this. It scares me. It makes me not want to get pregnant again. I hate that I’m 168.5. I hate that I have stretch marks. I hate that my face looks fat. I hate that I can’t sleep anymore. I just want my daughter here.

This is honestly the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. I honestly don’t know if I want to put myself through this all over again. I want to be skinny and happy and healthy and holding my daughter. A month or so left. I can’t wait. I feel ugly and fat and I applaud women who have multiple kids. It’ll be so worth it when she’s here, I know that. But right now I’m just feeling disgusting and I just want to hide in the house.