Anxiety💔

I got pregnant for the first time in October 2015 and had an early miscarriage a week after my bfp. Towards the end of that November I found out I was pregnant again which resulted in a miscarriage Christmas morning. Two month later towards the end of February 2016 I got a bfp and was prescribed progesterone and baby aspirin and I was able to carry my son to term and now I have an amazing 15 month old. When he was 9 months old my SO and I decided we wanted to try for our second and had been given the go ahead from my doctor who said after a successful pregnancy the chance of miscarriages goes down. Within a month I got my bfp and my doctor put me on progesterone suppositories and baby aspirin and I had another miscarriage at 10 weeks due to a subchorionic hemorrhage. I waited 3 months to try again which resulted in a miscarriage at 9 weeks and again this December I went through my 5 miscarriage at 10 weeks both from subchorionic hemorrhage’s. 5 weeks after my miscarriage I got a dark bfp and I’m terrified. I’ve been extremely nauseous and tired. But I’m driving myself crazy and am in constant fear of miscarrying. Doctors have told me I’m not old enough to worry about fertility issues which is so frustrating because through all of this I have become very depressed and cynical. I just want to grow my family and all I’m left with is pain and suffering. I have lost the ability to get excited over bfp and frankly I just live in fear anymore. Anyone with positive stories or advice are always appreciated.