You’d think the hardest thing is getting pregnant.

The waiting, the testing,the stress

You’d think the hardest thing would be seeing another birth announcement from someone else sometimes from someone you know doesn’t deserve the baby

You’d think the hardest thing would be watching all the stories of children gone to soon

You’d think the hardest thing would be how hard you are on yourself because “WHY CANT YOU JUST DO WHAT YOUR SUPPOSE TO BE ABLE TO DO”

You’d think the hardest thing would be knowing he has a child with someone else before you

You’d think the hardest thing would be knowing you can’t really afford <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">Ivf</a> but that shouldn’t stop you from being a mom

You’d think the hardest thing would be FINALLY GETTING PREGNANT AND OMG YES FINALLY only to miscarry

You’d think the hardest thing would be trying to make him understand your crying and upset but not at him the whole world

You’d think the hardest thing would be watching a once loving relationship-fall apart and crumble right before your very eyes

You’d think the hardest part is him finding someone else to love and be with

You’d think the hardest part would be forcing a smile when you find out their pregnant

You’d think the hardest part is seeing the birth announcement and the perfect little baby that you never had

You want to know the hardest part?

Letting go, letting go of the hope. Letting go of the what if’s and trying to remember why you wake up in the morning. The hardest part is finding the sheer will to live when everything else around you has died