Lost and depressed.

So my husband and I have been together for 9 years and he claims he doesnt want kids. His reasons have to do with his upbringing. I found out that my b/c was causing some health issues so I had it removed. We had decided to just use condoms but that lasted all of two weeks. We have moved on to the withdrawal method (at his choosing).Deep down I think he has to be okay with having a kid because this method isnt the safest. I am tired of seeing all these beautiful babies and not knowing if that will ever happen for me. Any advice??