Help, first kiss-ish, awkward as hell

Ok so One of my best guy friends and I have recently started liking each other and we were hanging out the other night. And he tried to kiss me but I️ dodged it by burying my head into his chest and then I️ moved my head and he caught me off guard and kissed me but I️ wasn’t expecting it and so I️ potatoed (became v awkward) and I️ started laughing.... he was really sweet about it and he apologized for making m me feel uncomfortable bc he said that’s the last thing he wanted to do. But agh that was horrible. It was my first kiss and I️ know everyone’s is awkward but I️ laughed.... I️ freaking laughed?!?! Did anybody else do this... is it just me... I️m overthinking help