emotional abuse?

hi I live at home with my parents and my mum in particular is always commenting on my looks saying I don't take enough pride in myself/am lazy for not putting on makeup etc.

but I just don't want to I don't want to always have to wear makeup or wear nice clothes?

the very sight of me makes her angry she says things like 'i can't bare to look at you you look a state' and ' people are laughing at you. if you go out like that people will be laughing at you. why would you want people laughing at you' she says she is trying to help me as looking nice shows I care for other people and why wouldn't I want to show other people that I care?

I'm just so torn. am I in the wrong? should I want to look nice all the time?

she is always telling me it's not normal to not to want to look nice to not want to be my best self.

it's really affecting my self esteem. I know I'm not beautiful but I used to think I looked okay without makeup but now when I look in the mirror I just feel like crap and everything time I buy clothes I don't think if I like it but will my mum like it? as if I wear something she doesn't like, like jogging bottoms she it just makes her angry and starts an argument

my dad agrees with my mum btw. they just get so angry at me to the point they can't bare to look at me.