Creepy kid

One day when I was 6 I came home from preschool to have lunch and I suddenly started crying, my mom ran over to me and asked what's wrong and I just remember asking her "What's gonna happen to me when I die?". Now, (11 years later) I have night terors of being a black guy and being murrdered, but it's more like a memory than a dream. It's same every time and I remember exactly where I was stabbed and how it felt, i remember taste of blood coming up from my throat and afterwards it's all dark. Also recently, while searching for some old photos I found drawing that I drew. It was in my parents' room next to 2L bottle of holy water, a cross and picture of Mother Mary. The drawing is kinda like a little comic, mom said it was 1st thing I ever drew when I was 3. It's heart-head stick figures and one of them is pregnant in 1st picture and everyone is happy, the next picture is pregnant woman laying down without eyes and everyone is crying and the last picture is the woman with her husband, they are crying because she lost the baby. My mom was pregnant before me, and had lost the baby during 7th month of pregnancy, if he was born, I wouldn't be, because he was supposed to be born on January 1st 2000. I was born on September 19th 2000. It seems to me like those 3 things in my life are like 3 pieces of a puzzle, but I can't connect them and it creeps me out. Should I talk to psychologyst about it? What should I do? How am I supposed to go on through all that?