Twin miscarriage 11 weeks

I found out I was expecting our rainbow baby just before Christmas and was over the moon.

After 2 previous miscarriages and ttc for 18 months before getting pregnant again I had an early scan at 7 weeks which showed 1 baby and heatbeat.

Yesterday at 11+3 I started bleeding lightly and this progressed overnight so attended local early pregnancy unit today for a scan but already knew I was going to miscarry again.

They carried out a scan and managed to find 2 babies but no heartbeats.

I am totally devastated and feel lost! I had prepared myself to be told I had lost my baby but now have the added heartache that I should have been having two babies.

I just feel like this is never going to happen for me and I am never going to be a mum and now I have to come to terms with loosing twins which would have been a dream come true for me and my partner 😪

How do I heal from this? Where do I start? Just feel so helpless