You did something..

Today, you came home and said baby.. do you work today? Yes dear, i do. Until Monday i work. I’ve worked a week straight. I’m exhausted. I’m on my period as well, could you give me a belly rub? I missed you.

He gets really quiet and says babygirl.. i love you. Please don’t get mad. I said what. He said don’t be mad when you look at my snapchat. I said okay.. um..

so i picked up my phone, go on snapchat, and see him grabbing a females boobs for money. We don’t have any money what so ever , and here it is 5:41 a.m and I’m sitting at the front of my neighborhood feeling like I’m not enough, feeling confused, hurt, upset, not loved, all sorts of feelings running through my heart and my head.. we’re really broke and i needed gas money to get to work.. I’m almost on E, the bank accounts are overdrawn, the checks aren’t hitting until Monday and i have 5 more shifts before i get my check 21 miles away from home.. i know we needed the money, so i get it. But I’m also on my period so i could be taking this way farther and blowing things out of proportion.