Abusive ex

4 years ago I dated this guy, who I thought was amazing. Slow but surly he started to become emotionally abusive. After 9 months of dating him we had a nasty break up, that ended with me getting a lot of hate on the internet even though it was his fault. At this point I had no confidence in myself. I dated a guy about 1 year after who was okay but ended up being a cheater. After a year we ended things and my ex came back into my life. I thought he had changed. In some ways he did but in others he got worse. He started forcing me to dress like a completely different person. He made me do my make up a center way. He would never get me small gifts and I would spoil him (my own stupidity) he would tell me my forehead was to big and that I was crazy one when I found out he cheated. He cheated on me 5 times that I know of. A few times with my crazy roommate who gave him an STD ( I got tested after and I was completely fine) , a girl who was friend of his, his friends of his friend, a girl I used to be friends who was way younger then him, then the one that killed me was a girl I was friends with and who openly lied to my face. He also wasn't there for me when my grandfather who I was extremely close to passed away! One of my friends ex boyfriends friends added me on fb around the time. This guy was the sweetest and we ended up being friends. About a month in a half later when I found out he had slept with my friend and that they lied to face. I ended it. I told him I was falling for someone better. That's when he told me I never would and that he was seeing a super model. He was so strong my boyfriend pays attention to every detail I say and he always takes my feelings into consideration. He knows I'm extremely insecure with myself and he truly is helping me feel beautiful. I'm truly blessed and lucky to have a boyfriend as perfect as him. There is a light at the end of the tunnel to all the girls dealing with abuse. I know it's hard to leave but you will be stuck in an endless cycle if you don't.