Bloating rant

I feel bloated most of the month and it really grinds my gears! I bloat REALLY bad right before and during my period. I also bloat when I'm ovulating. I get about 1-2 weeks maybe that I don't feel like a bloated whale!! I used to have an eating disorder and when I "recovered" (I just started using food as a.coping mechanism again and gained a bunch of weight. Not recovered from my bad relationship with food. But its not an eating disorder and I'm not sickly skinny and starving myseld anymore) I gained a bunch of weight and just hate myself again. So feeling bloated on top of hating my size really gets to me. I eat when I'm sad and then get sad because I ate. I'm just a sad bloated blob.