At the age of 14 I had my first real relationship and i new the guy for like a year before we dated so we got to know one another really well since we hung out everyday with friends also he took my virginity as well anyways one day we where hanging out and I said something stupid I can't remember what but it upsetted my friends and they all left my ex house and talked then they came back and got my ex and talked to him and came back next min I know there all mad at me and he next min I know he dumped me not sure why either I never got to find out why they where mad over what I said when it was about me and now I'm 25 years old and I'm married and been married for 2 years now and been with my husband for five years but I can't seem to get that day out of my head or to forgive myself I still love my ex alot and the other day for the first time I took the courage to say hi and I apologized to him but he couldn't remember much of that day but every day of my life I couldn't get that day off my mind I hated hated myself for it cause I really liked the guy but when we talked he was very nice to me he made me smile and so on but I ain't sure on what to do about my situation I'm trying not to cry as I type cause I miss him but I love my husband but I can't get over my ex no matter how hard I try any advice