When will it Start to feel real?😫

So ladies i feel I'm going crazy!!! I'm 14 weeks tomorrow I've had 4 scans all were okay..one scan only being 3 days ago. Yesterday I had pink blood when I wiped went to hospital but they can't scan me until Tuesday. I just keep expecting something to go wrong,I feel normal,don't feel pregnant don't feel like I'll be having a baby in December! Can't even explain it!! I miscarried last year and tried a while prior to that I never had these worries & feelings with my daughter. I just want to feel pregnant and want to stop thinking something is going to be wrong..I convince myself!! When will it feel 'real' and does anyone else feel the same? I feel a loopy woman lol xx