Feeling depressed😪

No hate please.. just feeling the need to vent. Im currently 31 weeks I only have 9 more week's to go yay me 😊 but my fiance's is in jail right now. and I miss him so much ☹️we haven't really had the best relationship just a lot of problems going on. but we were fixing it and now I just feel so sad that we never got the chance for him be involved with my pregnancy or anything. I been doing it alone and it just sucks he was there when I found out that I was pregnant and he was happy he was my pregnancy pillow literally I was all over him legs arms everything lol but he loved it and loves to cuddle so he never complained he would hold my belly when we would sleep. and talked to our little girl 🙂 my baby shower is in march I give birth in April and he's missing everything he wants me to send pictures of the baby shower and of my belly ( he wanted me to have a big belly cause he thinks it cute lol) maternity pictures too and the closer I get to my due date the more it upsets me that he won't be there. I just miss being held and really wish he was here to experience this with me. he has his court date in march and he says things are looking good that maybe he will be able to be there for our daughter birth. I'm not getting my hopes up to much but definitely fingers are crossed