I’ve been having a lot of issues with my boyfriend lately. And no I don’t want to break up with him because we really do genuinely love each other. I’ve been making big deals over stupid little things. It hurts me because sometimes I get overly upset and I end up saying and acting a certain way and it really hurts him and it hurts me 10 times more because I know I’m hurting him and he doesn’t even see it. He’s done so much for me and I just spit on his beautiful angelic face. He gave up all of his friends for me because he knew they were being huge assholes to me. I didnt even ask him to. I don’t want to hurt him anymore...one time I even thought of killing myself so that I would never hurt him again but then I realized that if I killed myself I would not hurt him after that but that would be the biggest and longest lasting hurt I would ever cause him so I immediately crossed that off. I know some of y’all are going to say “then just stop making a big deal of things” but boi if I could I fucking would so don’t tell me that. I spoke to him about this and he says “you never hurt me. You’re just stressed” idk what exactly he means by that but that’s what he said. The more I fall in love with him the more I make huge deals of stupid shit. I make big deals when he fucks around in drama rehearsal, when he makes a sexual joke with his friends (no they ain’t girls), when he occasionally talks to a girl even though I know for a fact that he has no intentions with her and is just being polite because she started talking first but it pisses me off anyway, and when he does dumb shit in general. He has ADHD and that causes him to be a dumbass but he’s my beautiful dumbass. The most beautiful, perfect, loving, caring, adorable dumbass the world has to offer. I just get so pushed at everything. Idk what it means... does it mean I no longer love him? I honestly really do feel a strong love for him though. Should we break up? I really don’t want to and neither does he. He’s never even gotten angry at me when I get overly emotional and bitchy. He just sits with me through the problem until we find a solution or something that could help. I don’t want to put him through anymore trouble. Someone guide me please. Even though we’re both 13 and in middle school, I’d like this relationship to last as long as possible.