Tired of getting hopes up

Al

I have a very irregular AF, it’ll come like clock work for a few months then disappear for a few months and all the tests are always bfn’s... My husband and I have been TTC our second child for 7 months now but No luck 😢. My last AF was Jan.8th so I was expecting to start again Feb.10 but today is Feb.15 and still no sign of AF “other than some mild cramps”. The hubby keeps telling me to take a test, but I just can’t stand the thought of yet another let down. I’m really really hoping that I’ll finally get a Bfp, my daughter is 3 and she really needs a sibling of her own 😞😞. But it hurts my feelings to keep seeing Bfn’s... anyone went through similar experiences, I need to vent..