Pregnancy worries

I’m 26 and just found out I’m pregnant a couple of days ago. My boyfriend is very supportive but we were not trying. I have so many emotions! We’re going to figure out how to make it work and a trust hat he will be there to help me all throughout this process, but I have concerns that nobody can really help me with and I don’t know if they’re “normal” reactions.. like Ive been struggling with my weight for the last year, and while I’m not overweight I’m just about 15 lbs heavier than I’d like. I’ve started exercising and eating healthier at the beginning of the year and have shown some progress. But now all I can think about is how terrifying it will be to see thre numbers on the scale go back up and how I’m going to feel uncomfortable in my own skin and just self conscious in general.

Not only that, but I’m SO worried it will be a girl. I can’t explain it. I want it to be a boy and I am so worried if I find out itsa girl I’ll be totally disinterested in this pregnancy. I feel so selfish for thinking these things.

Am I just terrible person? Did anybody else have anything even similar go through their minds?