This hit me hard. Please read if you have been struggling TTC.

I was sitting on Glow last night (as usual) while relaxing with my boyfriend. Sulking while reading posts because I had gotten a BFN that morning. He kept trying to talk to me, but I was so tuned in to this app and googling my symptoms and whatnot that I wasn't giving him my full attention.

He finally took my phone out of my hands, placed it on the table, and grabbed my hands. He said he knows how sad this journey has been making me (it's been almost a year with no luck), but that he loves me to no end and is tired of seeing me sad.

He said all he wants is to see me smile again. He said, "you can post as much as you want on that app and google symptoms till your hands fall off, but that won't change when it will happen. At the end of the day it's only hurting you, and it hurts me to see you this way. I know we're tired, but I'm not giving up. It will happen, I have faith. Stop bringing yourself down."

Then he kissed my forehead and handed my phone back. It made me so unbelievably sad to hear him say that, I had no intention of hurting him, I've allowed this whole process to eat away at me.

I'm going to try to stay away from this app for a little, take a breather, and remind myself that there is more to life than this.

🖤