I am going into my 6th week of my 3rd pregnancy since September 2014. I found out October that I was pregnant (assumed around 4 weeks). I was bombarded with all the symptoms at once... Like a pregnancy overload. I called my Dr that Monday and due to my age he wanted to go ahead and see me that day. I went in had blood work and scheduled an ultrasound for Thursday. Well Tuesday I started having brown discharge and major cramping through my belly button and in my bottom. I knew that spotting could occur but the crMping reminded me of the feeling I had the day before my daughter was born but because that had been 16 years I gathered my nerves said my prayers and went to bed. The next morning I woke up drenched with sweat, you could see the outline where I laid, and when I went to the bathroom the brown had turned into dark black blood clots... Which I knew could not be normal. I also realized that the nausea, headache, and swollen breast where gone. It was like someone turned off my pregnancy switch and I was just having a bad period. I called my Dr and he had me come in. He advised the blood work showed that my progesterone and hCg were way too low to identify a vital pregnancy and explained a Molar Pregnancy. He was confident that I shouldn't have anything to worry about when I decided to try again. It took a couple of weeks for me to stop bleeding and cramping. My husband and I had decided to take a couple of months off and possibly try again after the first of the year. November rolled around and I couldn't remember what my Dr said about my ovulation days and wether the loss would have altered my cycle. The nurse said yes That my body would have to recalculate and that my ovulation and periods would be abnormal for a few months. So I brushed aside and went on. Black Friday we got up to shop and someone turned the pregnancy switch on high blast. I immediately knew without a test that I was pregnant. I didn't tell my husband until he figured it out that Sunday when I couldn't get ready for church because I was sick. We took a test and yep positive. Well because it was so soon after the loss I called my Dr Monday and after test he confirmed it. I was very early but I was pregnant and my hCg was good and he started me on progesterone to help. I was doing good until my 5/6 week. I was scheduled for my ultrasound on Dec 19 the Monday before I passed a sack I went to the Dr that Tues and we actually saw another sack so I was initially pregnant with twins and lost one. He confirmed that I was about 5 weeks but by the weekend I lost the second twin the same day my dad passed away. I was devastated, broken, and withdrew from any type of happiness! My Dr set up some testing to check out the levels of enzymes in the uterus for later in January, but I was still to hurt to go forward. I even started taking birth control pills because I just couldn't take the chance, even though I had been rejecting my husband since November. I took the pill until March and because they had my so screwed up I decided to stop and still rejecting my pour husband most of the time. April came and My clouds had lifted and finally feeling better. I started checking in with my feelings and emotions and decided that maybe it was time to go through with the test. I set my appointment in May. The test took 2.5 weeks to get results and before I had received them I was pregnant. I went ahead and waited for my Dr to call because I had all the meds I needed and would only be 2-3 weeks. When he called I told him and he seemed upset. He said my results showed that I have 6 enzymes that are abnormal and cause blood to clot in my uterus and now that I am already pregnant the chances of saving this pregnancy was minimal....... He started me on baby aspirin and set appnt up for last Tuesday. I went in had blood drawn and ultrasound. At that point every thing is on track. Sack measured at 5/4weeks, sacks intact and fetal pole developed; hormone levels normal. He set up another ultrasound for this Tuesday June 9th. All my symptoms have been normal... No overloading or bombrushing. Emotional until a few days ago I had not allowed myself to connect. Then I was reading some things and regardless if I am able to carry this baby another day God granted the blessing and purpose to be its mommy  100% of the time. So I had decided to take each moment as if I never knew the good chance that I would never deliver and do the things most mummy's and daddy's do. Today is our First Wedding Anniversary and we woke up excited to celebrate with our church family and as I was getting ready I felt a feeling and went to the bathroom and now I am spotting the brown discharge just like I did in the beginning of the other two miscarriages and once again I am slowly crumbling into fragments! I just want to scream and beg for an answer to why?