message to my ex

is this a bad message???

i want to send it to my abusive ex. whom i do miss but i know it isnt right. i just want to give myself the closure

I just wanted you to know, I forgive you. Im sorry things ended the way they did.

it took me to long to realize, we didnt love eachother, Well maybe not in the right way. I use to think I couldn't live without you it took so long before I could. I often feel like I wasted time of my life I'll never get back. But then I realize if i wasnt hurt, i wouldn't be where i am today ( literally because you know why).

I have become more independent after my co-depenancy on you. I no longer try to live to the standards you had.

All I wanted was to be loved, I never asked/demanded for anything from you. You did buy me alot of my wants but you never gave me my needs thinking its enough to make me smile or make up for things. I told you time and time again all I wanted was YOUR TIME. My most famous line between us was

"given a choice between me or anyone, you always pick someone else".

Im sorry i picked myself after trying for so long to "make it work". I hold nothing against you. I recently had a bad dream about you truly hitting rock bottom...

it had me worried.. I want you to be happy and be the best you, you can be. I wish I had brought that person out of you. But we never did😔.. The childish fight between me and you is as over as our relationship. So please leave me alone. Im deleting my facebook soon to insure that im unreachable forever. I have been quiet and let you continue trying to tear me down until now and this is just my feelings, letting you know I have no room in my heart for hate or any kinds of feelings for you!.

You have no control over any of this. This is my final goodbye to you,

Best wishes.

~someone you once knew.