After 3 years of TTC and one chemical over 3 years ago... I’M FINALLY FREAKIN PREGNANT!!! LONG post below if you’re interested to see what I did differently and what I’ve experienced within the past week of being aware of my pregnancy.

Here is my story...

I’ve been TTC for over 3 YEARS with irregular cycles and multiple issues including painful cysts. It wasn’t until recently like, within the past 5 months, that my cycles became regular on a regular basis. They would go from irregular to regular sometimes, but never for this long. This started happening one month after I started eating 100% plant based food. I’m not here to preach to you about veganism but I feel that is what made this possible. I had started transitioning last January and easily gave up meat but struggled to give up dairy and eggs. About 6 months in I cut all of it out and that’s when I started experiencing a transformation. That’s the biggest thing I did differently. I’ve also started meditating. I recommend the Breathe App if you’re looking to start. I feel like being vegan, meditating, and praying helped me physically, mentally, and emotionally.

It was difficult to stay positive sometimes.

On 2/17 I was approximately 12 DPO and AF was 5 days late when I started spotting. I was absolutely CRUSHED when I started bleeding because I really had high hopes that I was pregnant. The next day I was still heartbroken so, I went to Glow to find support. I was going to post the following message but I decided against it as I thought it was too negative.

This is a good example of how down I would get and how hard I would be on myself. Those of you TTC understand the pain and those of you who’ve been trying for longer than normal probably know it too well. I decided to try and change my mindset. I saved pictures of positive messages that were on my timeline.

I even saved pictures of an uplifting message that a fellow Glower sent me on a particularly negative day, one year ago.

I revisited some of my favorite messages that I always come back to when feeling down.

I just filled myself with positive messages and words.

The next day the spotting had let up so much that I decided to test and before I could even set my frer down I SAW THE LINE.

As you can see, the test line appeared even before my pee could even reach the control line. Never thought I’d have such a blazing positive so I felt confident that my hcg levels were high, but I also felt scared that I was miscarrying or going to since I was spotting. Fast forward to yesterday (16 DPO) and I had to go to the ER because I couldn’t get in to see an OB and because I was bleeding it was an emergency. After a LONG and EMOTIONAL day in the ER I discovered that my hcg levels are good for being 5wks pregnant and my lil soybean is still in there!!!

I know it’s tiny but it’s there. I am on bed rest until I can see my OB on Friday. The only way to know if I am miscarrying or going to is to see if that number drops on Friday. I’m staying positive though. I feel like all of those negatives within the past 3 years have prepared me for this moment. Ever since I’ve been home in bed & resting, the spotting has completely stopped so I’m hoping and praying it continues to cease.

This was on my timeline the day I thought I’d started my period. Y’all, keep the faith. It’s possible. Please, pray my soybean sticks and my number rises by Friday. I appreciate any thoughts and prayers. I feel SO blessed to be able to share this message with y’all.