4 days late second cycle off pill help 😬

Honestly I’ve never been afraid to test I always am quick to do it the day after missed period but I’m dreading this one because I feel different than I usually do before my period . I always know it’s going to be negative but this time I’m not sure and it’ll hurt more if it’s a BFN . Rather just have af show at least then I’d know my period is regulating . It’s second cycle off the pill so I keep telling myself my body is just reacting to being off but idk 😥 I’m waiting I think until Sunday and taking it with my husband .