So I kinda like to smoke weed

Well in trying to but not really to conceive. Two things: 1. I'm not financially stable...at all...really it's pretty bad..thrifty spender. 2. My hubby and I smoke together and believe me it's just so peaceful..lately I've just been getting sick of smoking. Well when I'm smoking which is like everyday 5 to 10 blunts a day I don't get my period for months..which is really ok with me. But it's been like 2 weeks since I smoked heavily I can't go cold Turkey because well...my hubby smoked all the time. Anyhow I haven't had a period since...April? But today I noticed a couple of things..I was about to cry just watching orange is the new black...it was just a dad scene but I don't cry..I. Not that type so then I realized Shit I'm about to get on the rag. Then hubby came home from work and I almost killed him...hands hurt so bad..then I got over it broke his 48 tv and for him a new one came home then went to go pee and I saw Brown at first I was like Wtf but then when I wiped I saw pink so then I knew forsure. Well my question is... I can quit but I can't control my anger like I used to..I don't want to be fighting with my babe...I can't count to 10 cuz when I get mad I just see red...Idk I need to get my Shit together..anyone else like smokin wanna have a baby and hate crying? Idk I'm all fucked up today...I don't kno how to act wen I start pls which is new to me. I've prolly had 25 periods since I started wen I was 17..didn't start smokin till well 17 fackkkkkkkk