Heart broken

Looks like my first love the first guy I had sex with if going to break up with me. The worse part is that I'm 10 weeks 4 days pregnant. I just don't know what to do. I honestly don't know if I want the baby now. But I'm so afraid of adoption or abortion I just can't do it. I have my parents support but why about my boyfriend? Why can't I have his support. In honestly so depressed and I keep having panic attacks. I have no one to turn to. I don't want to talk to my mom just in case he does change his mind because she will tell my step dad. They already don't like him now. I just wish my life would stop falling apart. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't wake up the next day so wouldn't have to face the depression for the day. Any words of wisdom would be appreciated. What would you do in my situation?