Past Eating disorder . & pregnant

Before I got pregnant I had severe anorexia. I find it an everyday struggle now being almost 30 weeks pregnant (baby is doing great and healthy) to eat as much as I should without the negative mindset of gaining weight every other day... I find myself still restricting calories and exercising (jogging at least 3 miles a day) . I'm trying my absolute best to do what's right for my soon so be son. It's extremely exhausting with this disorder.. Anybody else have /had an eating disorder while pregnant ?  Before I became pregnant I was 120, now I'm 148 (bouncing between 148-151) and I just feel huge.