Venting breakup

He broke up with me, to better himself he says, for he can mature and he feels as if i deserved better. I believe him, yet i love him too. He asked me to please stay in his life he says that to him i am someone god sent in his life, and he doesnt wanna lose me. We were together for 2 months yet everyday for 6 months we talked every day every week we would see each other sometimes more than once a week. I presented him to my family, and i trusted him with everything i felt for him. Is it wrong for me to want to keep talking to him even though it hurts? But knowing he isnt there to talk to hurts more. This was my first relationship and i love him, i make excuses for him he told me to take him back .. but he said that in the moments when inwas breaking down i dont know if he truly meant it. So i didn’t say yes. He says he loves me. I dont know what to do i dont hate him, i love him actually like an idiot. What can i do in a situation like this knowing that he told me to give him time to better himself, yet also just being hurt knowing that he broke up with me. Yet also being so confused with whether he wants me or not.