TTC almost 4 years 😢

I have a little girl who is 6 in a half I am very blessed to have her!! I had two miscarriages before I got pregnant with her. My first miscarriage I was 6 weeks pregnant and didn't even know I was pregnant I thought I was just starting my period but I was hemorrhaging and had to rushed to the hospital and that when they told me I was indeed pregnant but loosing the baby. After that my ob told me to wait 4 months before trying 4 months to the day I was pregnant!!! When to the doctor every 10 days for a check after three months of 10 day apts we waited a month! The day before my 4 mo th check up I woke up to go pee and there was blood! I was devastated!!! I had to have a dnc 😢 they had to put me u see because I couldn't calm down enough and stop crying! It was by far the worse thing that has ever happened to me! I got really depressed gained a lot of weight was angry all of the time! Then one day I was eating breakfast with my mom and all of the sudden I felt like I needed to go throw it all up!! I instantly grabbed my calendar and started counting I was late!! 16 days!! Well my pregnancy ended up being a roller coaster! I was in bed rest at 6 months because I was already dilated to a 3 and we were already worried I would lose her! I made it to 38 weeks and for induced because I had retained so much fluid I looked as if I was carrying triplets and I couldn't feel her move anymore because she was so tiny and there was so much fluid! She is my miracle baby and I love her sooo very much but I definitely want another one! And she wants a baby brother or sister! Since she was two that has always been one of her birthday and Christmas wishes was to be a big sister! She also prayers all the time about it! I feel like such a disappointment not only to my self but also to my 6 year old!! 😢😢 I really hope this app helps!! Fingers crossed!!