MS mommy and scared..

March 2nd was my 28th birthday and my sons 4th birthday. First thing In the morning I get the results to an MRI confirming I have MS. Here I am trying to conceive baby number two and found out that I have an incurable disease that has completely and will completely change my life forever. Since I’ve been 19 I’ve been sick with different things, mostly depression and anxiety. But in 2015 things changed. For four months I suffered from urinary retention and had to have a catheter. A month later I had a seizure and was hospitalized. They did a bunch of tests and an MRI. They found a lesion on my brain and put me on injections three times a week and said I had Clinically Isolated Syndrome which is the beginnings stages of MS. I did the injections for almost a year before my husband and I decided to try for another baby. I was off the meds for 6 months and we started trying, clearly unsuccessfully in September. Now with getting it confirmed MS I’m rethinking everything and so confused. Worst part is my husband is so supportive and always there for me. He takes me the every appointment and I have multiple a week. But he won’t talk to me about my new diagnosis and TTC. Am I crazy for being scared to keep trying knowing I could get worse not being on a medication for it? Plus I already have a four year old to take care of and it’s me and him most of the time as my husband works nights and sleeps during the day. Idk I feel lost and alone..