I’ve had nightmares since I was three, and I’ve had multiple ones with school shooters where the guy who assaulted me is the shooter.

It’s been a year since the assault and I just now got into a relationship.

I had a dream that there was a shooting at his university and he sacrificed himself to help someone else live [he jumped in front of the person when the shooter was firing].

It was all third person perspective.

It flashed forward to his mom calling me and telling me and then it was like I was watching myself and I cried and then it flashed forward again to his funeral and I was just crying at his casket.

I woke up in a sweat at 5:41am.

I’ve had nightmares like this every night for seventeen years now. Where either I’m being tortured or someone I love is dying. Please provide insight x