Two chemical pregnancies in a row

I got off the mirena in April, got pregnant pretty fast, and then "started my period" which I know to be a chemical pregnancy. Then I got pregnant again this cycle and this time I really thought it was gonna stick. I stupidly thought a chemical pregnancy couldn't happen twice. Not that I thought it was impossible just that it couldn't happen to me. Not twice. But here I am bleeding again. And I'm just so frustarated and mad. I was so excited to get pregnant again. Ecspecially so fast. And now I'm back to square one and I feel mad and hurt and pissed and guilty (like its my fault even tho I know it's not) and did I mention how angry I feel? Like really really angry. And I feel like I shouldn't even have these feelings because they're not "real" miscarriages like some women say and some women have to go through so much worse. Who I am to be feeling so hurt over two barely there pregnancies? 

But I do feel these feelings and it really rely sucks. I have no one to talk to and I'm not even allowed to openly feel these feelings because I live with my mother in law currently and a few roommates and like I said no on knows. So in just sitting here writing out a rant to a bunch of strangers on the Internet and stewing in my pity party that I really need to just snap out of. Im sorry if I sound whiny and pathetic I'm just really upset. 😔