Some days i just wake up feeling really down. Usually its when i have a dream about someone or something. Last night it was about my ex boyfriend and we use to be very physically aggressive towards each other. Even though i know he’s terrible i find myswlf dreaming of meeting him once again to see how hes doing akd reconnect. I felt safe im the dream like i use to with him before je started hurting me. Im so confused and i need help, i dont know why i would cling onto someone so toxic. I find myself missing that confidence he always put on for others but behind doors he was just another baby. Our relationship emded was a year ago, why would i ever even be missing him at all if he was so terrible to me? We had sweet moments but they didmt out way the bad so i dont understand.