I've been planning/hoping for a VBAC my whole pregnancy. Last minute (38+5) baby decided to change up positions (oblique) and my doctor wants me to have a c section.

I'm so emotionally miserable about it, I can't even get excited about getting to see my baby soon.

I just keep replaying how wildly miserable I was after my first c section (emergency) and how hard it's going to be to care for my 18 month old son.

I know it could be worse. I know I should just be grateful that baby will be born healthy.

I'm so overwhelmed with negative emotions, I'm not sure how to handle it.