I can't take this anymore.

Melinda • Had 4 miscarriages in 2015 and had our rainbow baby December 2016
I just lost another baby in the last 4 months. Such an emotional roller coaster. Lost our first baby at 5 weeks and now I would have been 7 weeks. Last Wednesday I went to the dr because my hcg levels were just creeping along. I had come to terms with it and when I got to the dr they did an ultrasound to see if it was ectopic instead she found our baby. Dr was completely confused and put me on progesterone and baby aspirin. I left so happy and felt relief. We were going to have our rainbow baby. Friday I woke up to tiny bit of pink spotting. Called the dr and she said it was ok and to take it easy this weekend. Well.....I woke up to horrific cramps and ran to the bathroom to find red blood. Put a pad on and laid back down. Few hours later I ran back to the bathroom and felt something fall out.....my baby!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭 Why?????? What am I doing wrong?????