I am currently 8 weeks-ish pregnant. I have a 5 year old daughter (who was a surprise after 6 years of trying) and had one miscarriage 4 years ago. We have been trying for 3.5 years...I actually had totally given up again. Turned up pregnant. But I have been struggling with depression hard core for a while. And my daughter is a straight up bully when she gets home from school. I’m finding it super difficult to bond with this pregnancy. I feel like I’m a terrible mother as is, what gives me the right to have another child?! There are even times when I hate this thing inside. Wtf?! I’ve been waiting for this to happen for so long! Why am I feeling this way?!