My boyfriend took advantage of me

My boyfriend took advantage of me but he doesn’t know it.

I complained to him about never planning a date for us. He came over to my house, my house is a 30 min drive from him. I got into the car and he asked me where we were going. I was pissed at him for not planning anything so we somehow ended up at Target.

I was a Virgin before that night. We had sex in the back seat of his car. I didn’t want it but I didn’t speak up. He asked me so many times before he put it in, if I really wanted to have sex. I said yes every time, even though I didn’t want it. It hurt so bad and it stung that he didn’t even plan anything for us. After he was done, I almost cried and he looked so worried.

I just I wanted something more special but I didn’t want him to be angry with me so I slept with him. He says he’s gonna plan dates for us all the time now. He’s been so sweet recently but sex just puts a bad taste in my mouth now but he loves nasty stuff.

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Edit: I’m not blaming him! I know that he can’t read my mind. It’s just the fact that he still took my virginity even when I was so upset. It was obvious that I was upset but he was concerned with “getting his d*ck wet*. He took advantage of me but it wasn’t rape and that’s not what I meant when I said he took advantage of me.