Cervical position? Help

Danielle
I have never for either of my children checked my cm or cervical position but TTC #3 I have. I need details/help I think I am pregnant but scared to test. For a few days now my cm has been creamy white but not a lot I notice it tho. & I jus checked my cervix's for the 1st time ever. & idk it feels very soft & at top of where my finger can reach feels puckered but the hole is tightly closed!! Help me please