Help?!

So.... um, I nearly had an anxiety attack while walking to my next class.

On Friday's the schedules change for athletics and when I was dating my love we would cross paths and he would walk me to class. Well certain things happen and we aren't entirely dating anymore but still love each other, and I write him notes/letters.

Yesterday my friend said that this guy had a note for me. I do not know if he is going to give the note to one of my friends for them to give it to me, or if he is going to give it to me himself. It makes me nervous because I don't know if the note is going to be good or bad. Any advice?