So tired...

I’m 39 and been TTC for #1 for 9 months. I really did think that this would be our month out of all the months we’ve been trying. But as predicted I’ve been spotting for the last two days and AF will arrive tomorrow.

How long do I keep trying, how long do I keep hoping, how long do I let myself feel this way? Why is this process so freaking hard?!

Hubby and I have had all the test done and we are good to go. The only ones I’ve not had done are the HSG. We have been referred to a fertility clinic and I’m having my AMH retested at some Point. Last year it was 3.2.

Please someone give me something to stay positive xx