Feeling down

I’m 10 dpo today n I used clear blue test n it was negative.. I’ve having twinges since 7dpo n now it’s just sharp pains that woke up last night but it comes n goes. I believe I’m totally out this month. Af due either tomorrow or the 27th but I feel like she’s gunna show up.. the disappointment all time is so real.. idk what is up. I legit did every other day since last af till the 17th had cramps for ovulation so tested it n bammmm positive on 3-12-18.. n also baby dance that day n 3 days after. Skip a day then another n stopped. Idk I’m so let down /: thought they say every other day method ur bound to hit it the egg lol. Guess not..