Okay so earlier today me and my mom were watching Tv and a cute little easter add came on... my mom started crying so naturally I asked her what was wrong and she looked at me and said "I miss Midnight," and instantly I started crying too. I've been crying off and on all night..

Midnight was my 'Baby Girl,' that's what I always called her, and she died back in September. My mom was in Saudi, visiting her husband, and I had the house to myself from late August till November first..I woke up on September 14th, around three am, to the sound of struggling. My 'momma instinct' forced me to HOP out of bed I turned on my phone flashlight. I opened the cage and picked up my baby, I held her close to my heart. I could feel her breathing against me and it was slowing down real fast. Her pulse began to slow too. I kissed her head and told her I loved her one last time. She looked at me with such a glow in her eye, I'll never forget it, then the glow died. Her breathing came to a halt and so did her pulse.. in pure shock and fear I quickly put her in her cage and ran to my moms room. Unfortunately I was alone..I called and texted my aunt, who was 'watching' me while my mom was gone, until she woke up. I made her come over. She came in the house to find me crying in my moms room and breathing into a paper bag.

For the next, almost, two months I had the place ALL to myself I slept in my mom's bed every night. I would NEVER spend more then five minutes at a time in my own room. I was fine to be alone as long as I wasn't really alone. As soon as I was the only living being in the house, I couldn't sleep without a knife in the bed or be in a dark room, NEEDED a nightlight.

To this day I still find it hard to sleep without a light and a knife near me...my mom and little sister are back in the house and I still feel lonely.

Also, to help paint a picture, this was Midnight [she was less then two years old, which if you know anything about bunnies, she died EXTREMELY young]

My Gangsta Bunny^ ^My Precious Baby Girl

[added note: this is my second baby (PET) that has died while my mom was away visiting her husband, it was the first time I was actually alone though...things always happen when she leaves, but those are stories for other days]