Today I should have been 15w3d. Went to get a 4d ultrasound to see the baby and I seen instantly there was no heartbeat. My baby died a few days ago I'm so lost. I've been crying for the 8hrs. I had a early miscarriage at 8 weeks in November. I just dont know how to come back from this or if I can. I'm in such a dark place right now. I'm grateful that I have my 17 yr old daughter but I want to give my husband a baby and I can't seem to do that. They keep telling me its not my fault but I feel so responsible. I couldn't protect my own baby. I'm borderline lupus so they are now saying that could be it they just don't know. I'm scheduled for a DnC tomorrow. I am so broken. I just want my baby back.