Ugh I feel like I can never seem to get control over my anxiety for very long, I have anxiety attacks out of nowhere and I hide them from my family and my husband and I don’t know why because all of them are very understanding and would gladly help me trough them if I let them know when it’s happening. I guess I feel ashamed or embarrassed but I can’t figure out why, I’ve tried the medication for it but I had some pretty bizarre side effects so I try just giving myself permission to have one and all these other techniques I’ve learned over the years and while they work in the moment they don’t keep my anxiety at bay. I was eating dinner and one came on so I made up an excuse of going to check on the dogs to come outside until it passes. I feel so at the end of my rope here and don’t know what to do.