Ive had 2 losses in a span of 12 months. Both losses were towards the end of the first trimester. Since then 5 women I know have gotten pregnant. One was my oldest sister and the other was my bro's gf. It was hard to go through their babyshowers and all that... My bro and his gf had their baby a mo th ago. It didnt hit me as hard as I thought.. My sister had her baby yesterday and I have been so emotional. I have been crying. It just feels like such a slap in the face. Im happy that the babies are here and mostly healthy (my sister's baby is in the nicu but should be okay). It just hurts so much because I keep wondering about my babies. I dont know how to not feel sad. I just want to be happy. I dont wantthis pain anymore.