I want a child. I’ve also wanted to be a mom. However im unrealistically scared to be pregnant and go theough child birth. I am diagnosed with an anxiety disorder which makes me scared and anxious to be pregnant and go through childbirth. I have no problem with raising a child. Im just nervous about childbirth and pregnancy and all the new experience and challenges it comes with. Growing belly, pain, body changes for the worst, childbirth complications, tearing, pain, infections, c-section, pain, death. Ugh.