this is my first pregnancy and I am so scared what if i lose it or i already lost it 😭

On Tuesday night I had some spotting after sex. i was really scared i didn’t know what to do so i asked here they said it was normal. Yesterday morning i had an appointment BTW i am 8 weeks and we were going to hear its heart beat. they did the ultrasound they couldn’t find the baby. i didnt know how to feel i just wanted to have a break down i know I still have a long way to go to have more kids but i was already getting attached. They sent me to this other place and they did another one the girl took forever didn’t even tell me what was going on and i asked when can i know what wrong she like your doctor will call you. After that i went to get blood work done for a threatened pregnancy. i just wish someone could be straight up and tell me what going on man 😭. i went home i was just laying down and i went to pee and i was spotting again i went to the hospital and they just took blood work and they like just come back on Saturday and if my hormones levels are high that mean I am not having a miscarriage and if they go lower then i am having one . ughh all i ask if you guys can Please help me pray Please